Rendezvous 09 ..

Sept23, 09 : Operating System Quiz ..

Sept 24,09 : Analysis and Design of Algorithms Quiz..

Sept 30,09 : The deadline for the second part of the toughest assignment I have done till date ..

Fountain Head …

After having spend the last 36 hours to finish the last 250 pages of the book, I think I do not agree with Ayn Rand on many things although I am waiting to get hold of a hard copy of Atlas Shrugged ..

Peter Keating and Howard Roark as exact opposites ?? No, I do not think so..Strangely, inequality can exist only between two things that are equal in a way. Inequailty cannot exist between superior and inferior. 3 is not equal to 4 but both of them are equal in the sense that they are numbers. One can compare 3 with a ..It would not make sense. The book worships Howard, the perfect man(the concept in which I do not believe in ..). It shows Peter as someone to be a parasite always feeding upon other’s ideas..How can they both be compared !! If Peter would have been able to find the solution of every problem by scrolling the pages of history, by looking at efficient structure of the past and Roark would not have been able to solve a maze without the help of others, then one could have compared them ..Roark has not been shown as Hero, but a Super Hero..If one argues that Roark is only a concept made to highlight a bigger purpose, then it is too abstract atleast for me..

PS: went to AIIMS PULSE 09 to hear Sonu Nigam and can firmly say that 50% of people there are insane, rest are IITians .Would probably go tonight also to Euphoria concert ..

Dominique Vs Roark ..

He did not smile …The smile was implicit in her being there..

Life…

Hey everybody..

My life has become remarkably simle…Attending classes, then working on pintos, reading fountain head in between and then back to pintos ..that’s it!!! nothing more , nothing less..(I mean missing the morning 8′o clock is also included..)

I have tried to stick to the resolution of not chatting and have occasionally come online when it is required..

Cya..

Minors and Chat…

The age old question is back …

Before that, minors are over as of now ..not satisfied with the performance, could have done infi better ..esp. when I was so well prepared ..bad luck with certain questions…Anyway, ditch ..

Can I live without chatting ??To settle this question, I have decided to quit chatting for an indefinite period of time..It is an extremely difficult decision as I have a relatively free sem, two of the buddies would not be in IIT this semester, and there would be almost 0 communication with the best chat buddies..I have some of my best friends on chats and one of whom I have never met ..(I think that buddy would be mad at me):(

But I seriousy want to do this …and I would be on orkut and facebook, would still update (with negligible frequency) update the blog, so it is not a social alienation on my part ..(I have already disabled the chat widget on gmail)..

thinking ..

It is not that I have plenty of time to write about stuff(Two minors a day after tomorrow..) and it is not that I really feel like blogging but there are somethings in your life…

He always wanted to have her as a friend as somehow he knew they along with their two other friends are supposed to be the best friends ..friends for life, but when she was with him, she was a totally different person…She was mesmerized by him, always talked about him only and failed to even recognise his presence in front of him..Even on phone, she always used to ask about him, on chats she used to talk about him, /* */…He thought that it was all natural and his place was just to act as an intermediate between his supposedly two best friends..but sometime it got to him, he felt that why did he call them their best friend, he does not share his life secrets with them, does not discuss the matter of life with them..he sometime thought why he did not discuss with them …and the only answer he could ever reach was they are not his best friends..strange …He always wanted them to be their best friends..so one day he sat down and decided that he would put to rest these raging storms in his mind and think about his life..He thought that he never wanted her complete attention as somehow he knew that it was not possible, he could never get it ..but all he wanted was that when he talks on phone with her, it is conversation with only two persons, when he chats with her, they talk about their lives , they can discuss what is happening ..He wondered why this is not possible and he is wondering since then, can they never bo true friends ?He was not ready to accept this, not ready to accept that they can never be friends..perhaps he was afraid of his past that he has never been able to make good friends. He ofted wondered how loosely this world has defined the word friend and how he is always chasing for perfect “friends” do they even exist ?..Every cell of his brain kept saying no to him but he always listened to his heart which said that if you try hard enough, you can find them…but how hard? at what cost ? at the cost of changing yourself to become what you are not ..When he applied all this to his relationship with her, he found that he is doing exactly this, he is changing himself …

PS: My goodness, tenses !!!

thinking …

It is not that I have plenty of time to write about stuff(Minors from Sept 4,2009) and it is not that I really feel like blogging but there are somethings in your life which force you to think and due to their heuristic nature, you cannot just stop thinking about them ..you read from internet, discuss that with the best of your friends and still not able to reach any conclusive answer, the answer that can put to end all the impending discussions in your mind, can remove the guilt you are carrying along with …

What am I talking about, have I ever been so serious about my blog? esp. when I have termed it as a dustbin of thoughts and also as a child’s view point about things around him… But this is one thing that have always troubled me and whenever I am free, I start thinking about it and bombard myself with questions which like a chain reaction, instead of giving any solutions, start a chain of more questions…I wonder how many things are there in this world which fall under this paradigm..

Let me blabber out the thing about which I am blabbering at the top …

Here is a recent convo ..

Me1: Ohk here is the thing, Why feel guily about disliking something that morally you should have liked …Ethically you should have like that thing (Why I am referring this as a thing !), but yet from the core of your heart (or brain ! whatever ..) you dislike it and no matter how much you force yourself , how much you explain to yourself, you cannot develop a liking for it .. Why should you feel guilty about it ?? because everybody around you like it, respect it ..and you are the only one..Is your oddness making you guilty or you yourself believe that you should feel guilty.. ? Under this guilt, you try to cahnge yourself, do not remain what you are , project to the world what you are not ..

Me2: Do not try to live in an abstract world. Do not try to impose a binary nature to certain aspects of your life. You have to observe them, you have to respect them , you have to like them …

Me1: But why ?? I do not like them ..I have tried and each time I try, I fail and I fail badly ..I make resolutions that I would never try and I would live with this anonymity in my life ..but then again you change me, you force me to try hard and in that process you make me fall even from a greater heights..Sometimes I see light, light which says that I can work it out but always something happens which brings complete darkness, changes everything , puts all my plans , all my resolutions to rest ….Why ???